dhanny__el

Dhanny'EL

dhanny__el

Writer โœ || Musician ๐ŸŽค๐ŸŽผ๐ŸŽถ๐ŸŽธ || ยฃngineer ๐Ÿ’ผ || Friend ๐Ÿ™‚
Happy is the man who finds his delight in the Lord ๐Ÿ’•..

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I knew my stance now. 
I felt terrible - I felt I had messed up so beau

I knew my stance now.
I felt terrible - I felt I had messed up so beautiful a friendship because I had assumed too much and ruined everything by adding my pinch of romantic expectations.
After all of this, one should think I would just stay away right? .... and heal from the hurt or something .... but no, hearts are stubborn, very stubborn - I say hearts because I know there are many others like mine, who just don't know when to stop.
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I remember nearing the time of her birthday, I planned so many ways to surprise her and make her feel truly special; getting some digital portraits of some of my favourite pictures of her done were one of the ideas.
I actually paid a guy to print one of the portraits on a large canvas with an inscription of a message that had taken me days to put together.

On the morning of her birthday, I sent one of the digital arts (which was just for morning ๐Ÿ˜…) to her via WhatsApp with a beautiful caption.

After reading her reply, I knew then that I couldn't follow through with the rest of the plan - For they were heartfelt expressions of how I deeply felt about her, and for her to give such a bland response meant she didn't want me to keep trying so hard.

I won't lie, she's a very good person, and so I tried so hard to read her signals; she was telling me to stop trying, so I did my best not to try to make this more difficult for her; I texted the artist to hold off with the canvas and all (I never even took back the money ๐Ÿ˜…). _

I did my best to make sure I patched things up (after offending her with my earlier confrontation and all that). I had to be mature enough to do the noble thing, apologize to her and ask her to to let me off the hook if I, in any way, made her feel I had pinned the blame of my unrealized expectations on her.

I'm glad we're cool till date and no one got overly embittered.
We are not as close as we used to be, but I'm so glad I mustered the courage to open up to her, I'm glad I took my chances. โ€ฆ. _

And hey, dear reader ๐Ÿ˜ƒ, this is not a sad story, for a sadder story would be one of a dude who fell in love with a lady, and never got the guts to tell her - I am certainly not that fella.
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~ The End.

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... & So be the work of art ๐ŸŽจ๐ŸŽจ...

... & So be the work of art ๐ŸŽจ๐ŸŽจ...

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Live purposefully. 
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Live purposefully.
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๐‚๐จ๐ง๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ฎ๐ž๐.... _

Then one evening, I mustered all the courage I had lef

๐‚๐จ๐ง๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ฎ๐ž๐.... _

Then one evening, I mustered all the courage I had left, and sent her several texts and voice notes meticulously pouring out all I wanted to say. "So won't you forget this girl already?", a friend of mine I had confided in would ask with a smirk on his face.
He just didn't get why I was busily pursuing this lady who didn't even give me the time of day.

At this point, my crush wasn't even talking to me, she had been quite offended by my confrontation, for she made it so clear that if there were ever anything I thought was happening between us, she was not the one to blame, for she had not in any deliberate way hinted that she considered being in a relationship with me - Yes, she liked me, but not in the way I wanted her to.

All of this came as a heavy blow, but that confrontation, to me, was a very good decision on my part, for even if I didn't like the response I got, I finally had some answer to work with; that I had proposed and she had declined.
I didn't particularly like this outcome, and the disappointment was nerve wrecking, but I finally had some closure, I finally had some clarity. โ€ข
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#dannyscript #dhannyel #truestory #love

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I was desperately trying find an opportune time to have a really long h

I was desperately trying find an opportune time to have a really long honest talk with her.
I felt I had come to know her enough.
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I was waiting for a special moment that never came; she had outrightly told me after I had relentlessly persisted that she didn't like going out on dates and all that, plus our crazy daily schedules weren't helping at all; she was consumed with her final year project work, and my career path as a Telecommunications Engineer wasn't one that afforded me the luxury of having a lot of time of my hands.
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I actually felt I had to wait for "that moment" to come because whether or not it was merely "chemistry", something was happening between the two of us, and we had to talk it over.
I didn't like the idea of having such intense conversations over the phone.
I was fully convinced she was well aware of my stance, but I didn't know hers.

She hadn't given me a yes, neither had she said no - I guess we were somewhere in between.

Things would have been way easier if she had just halted me in my tracks and made me know that she wasn't interested in all my advances, but no, we kept going on and on.
It was as if we were in a "relationship" of some sort, but she could pull out anytime, because she had never actually initiated anything with a yes.

I was breaking down..
I couldn't handle the emotional tsunami anymore..
I just had to know where this was going.
At a point, I called her, and got some answers that sky rocketed my hopes, only to realize in the morning that she had given those answers unawares; apparently, she had been asleep and had "sleep talked' with me over the phone.
But then, wasn't I supposed to take all she said when her guard was down as being totally true and honest?

So I decided to confront her..
Since I barely got to see her, I would call and asked if we could talk, if she declined, I didn't press, I would just find a nice way to end the conversation hoping she hadn't heard the embarrassing thumping of my heart, my heart beat I was sure was as loud as the sound of a drum.

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_ (๐“๐ž๐ฑ๐ญ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ ๐ซ๐ž๐š๐œ๐ก๐ž๐.. ๐‚๐จ๐ง๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ฎ๐ž๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ง๐ž๐ฑ๐ญ ๐ฉ๐จ๐ฌ๐ญ)

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So the Picasso in me came out today ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜‰๐ŸŽจ๐ŸŽจโœŒ๐Ÿพ..
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#fun #art #painting

So the Picasso in me came out today ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜‰๐ŸŽจ๐ŸŽจโœŒ๐Ÿพ..
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#fun #art #painting #retreat #workretreat

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๐‚๐จ๐ง๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ฎ๐ž๐.... _

Here I was, sitting, facing and chatting with the crus

๐‚๐จ๐ง๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ฎ๐ž๐.... _

Here I was, sitting, facing and chatting with the crush of my life in her room, and envisioning ahead of time what a beautiful relationship we would have when we finally made things official.
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She escorted me to the road side as I later left for the fun games event (cos I had promised some friends I would be there).
I remember asking her to hold my hand as we walked, it felt like a movie.
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I had to cross to the other side to take a car, after I had crossed, I turned and saw her looking and waving at me, her eyes told me had enjoyed my company - all of this really did feel like a movie, a very beautiful movie. โ€ข
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#dannyscript #dhannyel #truestory #love

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2 months ago
Remember I mentioned earlier that I met her in Church?
Well, there was

Remember I mentioned earlier that I met her in Church?
Well, there was this time our youth group was having an outing and fun games thingy so I offered to go over to her place, pick her up, and then we head to the venue together.
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I literally didn't sleep that night, to say I was super excited would even be an understatement.
You see, at this point, I was unsure about many things, but I was very certain I totally liked her.
Not that I'm blowing any horn, but this was a time in my life that several ladies were almost simultaneously making advances at me, and I had found a way to decline most because I simply am the all-in-or-not-in-at-all kind of guy.
So when I say I liked this lady, trust me, I really did ... Actually, I still do (maybe that's a story for another day ๐Ÿ˜…). _

I just couldn't wait to see her, it was quite some distance getting to her hostel (she was still in her final year back then), but this fella didn't mind making the journey at all.
We were in touch continually via text and call almost the entire time it took me to follow the directions she gave to her place.
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I finally got to her hostel after a couple of hours of leaving home, made my way to the front gate, and called her on phone. She was in an attire she certainly wore only indoors when I saw her standing on the first floor waving at me.
I swear my heart skipped a beat when I drunk in how beautiful she was, and I swear again, I saw butterflies, or was it stars?
The hug she gave me when I made my way upstairs still remains my 2019's most cherished hug ๐Ÿ˜‚. _

We went to her room, and I almost instantly built a rapport with her roomie.
We conversed for a long while, because she had actually decided not to even attend the games, and I frankly didn't see how interesting the games would be if I didn't get her to go with me.

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I later got to meet more of her friends, and braggingly told them I was the fella who was going to win their friend's heart.
Trust me, the way the vibe was that day gave that signed, sealed and delivered impression.

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_ (๐“๐ž๐ฑ๐ญ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ ๐ซ๐ž๐š๐œ๐ก๐ž๐.. ๐‚๐จ๐ง๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ฎ๐ž๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ง๐ž๐ฑ๐ญ ๐ฉ๐จ๐ฌ๐ญ)

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๐‚๐จ๐ง๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ฎ๐ž๐.... . _
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Her reactions to me were not always positive, some

๐‚๐จ๐ง๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ฎ๐ž๐.... . _
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Her reactions to me were not always positive, some days, it was as if we ending up together was a done deal, other times, it was as if I had done something gravely wrong to upset her.

Whether she was aware of it or not, I had been left to assume how she felt about me, and like yours, my mind can assume some pretty wild stuff - especially when it's not "thinking straight." _

I had to push harder, I had to get closer.
I had to find a way to get her to know me better.
I had to go all lengths even if she wouldn't.
.. So I started making some more daring moves.. โ€ข
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#dannyscript #dhannyel #truestory #love

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She was a tough nut but I wasn't bent on giving up that easily. So in m

She was a tough nut but I wasn't bent on giving up that easily. So in my mind, I had not really proposed - in my heart of hearts, I truly believed the way to go was to go on an actual date with her, express all my bottled up emotions, look her intently in the eye, and search for all the answers I needed.
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One thing particularly gave me constant headaches, she actually thought all I did to wow her, the carefully thought through text messages, the voice notes I sent, were that good just because I was good with words.
Imagine sending someone a beautiful text about how beautiful you think she is, and all she tells you is that you're a good writer, and says so with heartbreaking blandness too.
It's not that I'm oblivious of the fact that I'm a pretty good writer, I just needed her to understand that some passions fuel one's writing skills, and frankly, I had no idea where most of the "vibes" I was giving her were coming from - they were just pure, honest and true.

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I knew my motives were in no way ulterior, how to get her to believe that was the hurdle.
I didn't want to be portrayed as desperate, because frankly, it's not that I didn't have "options" to choose from if I wanted to initiate a romantic relationship with someone.

But you see, being in a relationship up until this point in my life was not something I was considering at all, so to meet someone who just seeing made me forget all my firm resolves, who broke down my tall walls, was a big deal for me.
I knew she had walls of her own too, and it didn't really rock my world that she wasn't really trying to get to know me. For I was so damn serious that even when she wasn't opening up about everything, I took to social media to learn some useful information about her.
Call me crazy, I was just a guy trying to get to know all I could about the girl I liked, really liked.
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_ (๐“๐ž๐ฑ๐ญ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ ๐ซ๐ž๐š๐œ๐ก๐ž๐.. ๐‚๐จ๐ง๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ฎ๐ž๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ง๐ž๐ฑ๐ญ ๐ฉ๐จ๐ฌ๐ญ)

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